6 months ago today I was laying in my hospital bed that I had spent 7 1/2 weeks in and the doctors were deciding what to do. The night before I had a few gushes of fluid. One doctor wanted me to wait 48 hours and one wanted the babies out now! I am a very anxious person naturally so you can imagine what this moment was doing to me. I had spend 29 1/2 weeks doing everything to STAY pregnant and now all the sudden it was all changing and I didn’t feel ready. The thought of having my stomach cut open and having my 4 very tiny helpless babies pulled out of the safest place possible was terrifying. I didn’t know what to expect or what was going to happen. I cried….a lot.
With the support of incredible medical staff and our families it was decided that it was best to take them now. I was terrified as they wheeled me down the hall to the OR, holding on to one of my nurses hands that had spent weeks caring for me as Tyson was getting his gown on to be in the OR by my side.
Everything happened so quickly and I felt a lump in my throat and kept my eyes closed tight until Tyson told me ‘OK! HERE COMES INDIE!’ I quickly opened my eyes and looked up at the mirror. I watched them pull out this sweet babies who was 1lb 13 oz and was screaming. I knew screaming was a good sign! All my fears left my body and we cried, no longer out of fear but joy. This was the happiest moment of my life. 2 1/2 minutes later all 4 were out. All screaming and doing so well. The amazing medical staff knew exactly what they were doing and stabilized my teeny tiny babies.
These babies have fought so hard to be where they are today and they are now big and chubby just the way they should be! They have literally worked so hard for every pound they have put on and are so healthy!
These last 6 months have been a whirl wind of emotion on everyone’s part and also incredible. I wouldn’t change one second. Is it hard? YES! Incredibly hard but sooooo worth it. I would do it everyday forever to have these sweet babies in my life! Our lives would not be complete without each and every one of them! They are mine and I cannot wait for it just to get harder and better every day!
– Mama Bear